I am jealous.
I am jealous
at how she can carry herself
so well
even if things arent turning out right for her.
I am jealous
at her ability
to cry
to let the tears fall.
I am jealous
at how she can talk to him
like nothing else matters
and he replies her with something humorous.
I am jealous at her smile.
I am jealous
at how she could smile at him,
and he would smile back.
I am jealous
at how she could live her carefree life
even if her maths sucks
even if she's gonna fail.
I am jealous
at how everyone else crowds around her
just because she's there.
I am jealous
at how she amazes everyone
at how she manages to make everyone laugh
without even trying.
I know i'm supposed to be satisfied
to feel happy
with all life's given me.
But why do these butterflie of life
flutter by her window
and not mine?
Why do the jam of happiness
spread so thickly on her toast
and yet
i'm deprived of that sweetness in my heart?
Why must i have this sour feeling in me?
I dont wanna resent you.
Jealousy
23 April 2010
MISUNDERSTANDING MANZ!
16 April 2010
Okay. i said darrell saw me right.
i think he actually really saw jean. yeah, Salac jean.
CAUSE WE'RE BOTH WEARING CHECKERED SHIRT.
But she got wear hat so i think i shall ask him if he saw the wrong person.
cause jean say she got offbeat. nehmind.
i think he actually really saw jean. yeah, Salac jean.
CAUSE WE'RE BOTH WEARING CHECKERED SHIRT.
But she got wear hat so i think i shall ask him if he saw the wrong person.
cause jean say she got offbeat. nehmind.
IT'S SPEECHDAY!
Yeap, it's speechday.
TODAY. D:
I'm gonna put some photo in my life now. :D
TODAY. D:
I'm gonna put some photo in my life now. :D
me and darrick ! :D
Adam lambert lookalike mwahaha. AKA afiqatan.
mister J (our dance chreographer) encouraging us !
Hair area.
makeup area. coolman !
me and yoram and his grassy hair. and cool pose. -.-
yeay, ! me and siokkheng. she looks daaaamn pretty right, :D
jasmine's attempt to defy gravity.
ATTITUDE SEH !
jasmine: "i'm thinking... i'm thinking..."
Uma and princess hair !
okay no more photo alr. :(
i want more too but nomore.
i want tale photo of our performance leh. ROAR.
okaynevermind. GOFACEBOOKSEE.
15 April 2010
Okay. i am seriously pissed off.
apparently someone wrote something about someone else
and somehow it feels like that someone is pointing its finger at me.
ME.
all me.
stop acting like some arrogant bastard just because you have someone else to lean on.
and it's facts that's being mentioned there.
stop acting like a little girl cause YOURE NOT ONE.
apparently someone wrote something about someone else
and somehow it feels like that someone is pointing its finger at me.
ME.
all me.
stop acting like some arrogant bastard just because you have someone else to lean on.
and it's facts that's being mentioned there.
stop acting like a little girl cause YOURE NOT ONE.
JAYCHOU
I'm watching Jay Chou's KTV of the chopin's nocturne. went to listen, it's nice. :D
i saw his half smile in the front of the vid and then
BAM !
i realised jay chou look like darrell :O
maybe should be darrell look like jaychou. :O
a bit look like lah.
a bit also dont have ah.
omg.
i think i'm crazy.
anw, he was the only one who saw me during efl. he say i look awkward and i missed the beat. D: really ah? ohgawd.
mwahaha.
OMG. no one saw me. so far. D:
siokkheng even worse.
her hair liddat NOONE RECOGNISEHER. D;
but she look cooooool. i want her hair badly. ESP HER FRINGE SO COOL. :(
ROAR.
Kahyan was like pissed today at assembly cause she said jaychou concert ticket was SOLD OUT twohours after they started selling(this i heard from mummy). D:
LIKE WHATTHEHELL PEOPLE ?! HE'S A HUMANBEING. lol.
Michael Jackson was a human being too. *tear*
DRAMA RAWKED TODAY.
SO FUN MAN. ;D
UMA CRIED LEIH ! HURRAYUMA!
good job. :D
okay i go listen to jaychou mumble his way to stardom see yeah.
OHANDMAYDAY CONCERT IS THIS SATURDAY TWO DAYS AWAY OHMYGAWD I AM FREAKING OUT.
i saw his half smile in the front of the vid and then
BAM !
i realised jay chou look like darrell :O
maybe should be darrell look like jaychou. :O
a bit look like lah.
a bit also dont have ah.
omg.
i think i'm crazy.
anw, he was the only one who saw me during efl. he say i look awkward and i missed the beat. D: really ah? ohgawd.
mwahaha.
OMG. no one saw me. so far. D:
siokkheng even worse.
her hair liddat NOONE RECOGNISEHER. D;
but she look cooooool. i want her hair badly. ESP HER FRINGE SO COOL. :(
ROAR.
Kahyan was like pissed today at assembly cause she said jaychou concert ticket was SOLD OUT twohours after they started selling(this i heard from mummy). D:
LIKE WHATTHEHELL PEOPLE ?! HE'S A HUMANBEING. lol.
Michael Jackson was a human being too. *tear*
DRAMA RAWKED TODAY.
SO FUN MAN. ;D
UMA CRIED LEIH ! HURRAYUMA!
good job. :D
okay i go listen to jaychou mumble his way to stardom see yeah.
OHANDMAYDAY CONCERT IS THIS SATURDAY TWO DAYS AWAY OHMYGAWD I AM FREAKING OUT.
TODAY
13 April 2010
Hello.
today damn tiring lor.
in the morning got home econ coursework.
then cook the stupid macand cheese.
so disgusting tastes like poop.
then later lessons quite slack la.
then after school
eat at canteen
then zhiyi pissed off cause gladys theyall went causeway point or somthing.
then eat with zhiyi lor. :D
zhiyi dont angry alr la.
then after that went change to costume
then at 2.15 likethat went down to blackbox.
then they all check check then we all went to hall.
had a dance prac,
talk with yoram and soraya and sangeetha,
then got break.
we went be prizewinner.
WOO YORAM GOT TOP IN SEC 2 NORMAL ACADEMIC LASTYEAR! YEAY YORAM!
KAY ANYWAY, we went be prizewinner go on stage shake mrswallace's hand and comedown.
quite fun. but damn tiring.
then aft that had a full tech run,
with malay dance and chinese dance and choir and all that.
yeay.
quite fun too.
then our dance turn . ;D
yeah then we did the dance !
OMGOMGOMG so fun.
then they were doing the curtain call.
at this time its alr 6.00++PM.
then we went curtain call lor.
while mr smith was clearing up some stuff with choir.
sangeetha, yoram, soraya and me bitch about her.
i feel bad but it's all the truth lor.
anw, then we talk talk.
then curtain call is done. YAY! CAN GO HOME!
NOT !
teachers gavwe feedbacks about the tech run.
"Overall other than the transition parts, is quite good."
"you all need to brush up on the changing!"
"just tighten up the transmissions and it'll be quite good"
ALL SAY THE SAME THING LOR.
>:(
at this time it's alr 6.30PM.
sangeetha got tuition at 7.30PM. :O
then aft tht choir and chinese and malay dance can all leave, left us atc and some random people.
then mrsmith was talking to the guy,
then me siok kheng sangeetha soraya talk lor.
then siokkheng say she and uma and kamlesh saw him.
:O!!!
then she say he waved to them.
then i ask her go die never tell me.
then she say
"you doing prizegiving ma!
whats more J didnt let us leave (p.s J's our dance choreographer)"
THEY CANNOT RUN UP AH!?
wlao.
then i didnt talk to her for 5 mins.
then i talk to her again. HEHE.
INTHEEND YOU KNOW WHAT TIME WE CAN GO HOME, AFT TALKING BAG ALL THAT?
7.30PM.
What the hell.
then aft that Uma ask SK what's my reaction.
then she say
"she ask me go die"
LOL.
then sk told me.
"We lie to you one la, he wasnt there. Uma SK and Afiq was in it"
AT MRT THEN TELL ME SAMORE.
TODAY I WILL GO KILL THEM.
SUNLIGHT
11 April 2010
I wake up in the morning getting hit by my daddy.
Grab my glasses i'm out of bed i'm gonna head to the beach.
Before i leave brush my teeth with some Colgate and water
Cause if i dont brush my teeth, my mouth will stink like your bottom.
AHAHHAHAHA.
Yeah i woke up at like 7.00am today.
went to east coast park in my daddy's car
with that big fiery ball of light hanging in the sky.
there were like light rays everywhere and it's really cool
cause there's trees everywhere (duh, singapore) and the light kindof filtered through
it's like damn pretty.
it looks like there's an orangey curtain hanging in the air.
the rays make the surrounding forests look like those in a fantasy movie.
really pretty.
somehow it made me think of many people. (hehe)
then at eastcoastpark
we walk lor. walk really really quickly.
close to jogging la.
then mummy say very hot.
then i say "where got hot ? very comfortable sunlight mah"
then she say "you siao ah. sunlight very comfortable meh"
lol.
but the sunlight really felt nice, like warm water running over your skin.
i love the morning sun. :D
the sun was so bright,
it made parts of the sea look white.
like there's a bowl of white water. really pretty.
I'm being overwhelmed by the beauty of the morning sun.
Grab my glasses i'm out of bed i'm gonna head to the beach.
Before i leave brush my teeth with some Colgate and water
Cause if i dont brush my teeth, my mouth will stink like your bottom.
AHAHHAHAHA.
Yeah i woke up at like 7.00am today.
went to east coast park in my daddy's car
with that big fiery ball of light hanging in the sky.
there were like light rays everywhere and it's really cool
cause there's trees everywhere (duh, singapore) and the light kindof filtered through
it's like damn pretty.
it looks like there's an orangey curtain hanging in the air.
the rays make the surrounding forests look like those in a fantasy movie.
really pretty.
somehow it made me think of many people. (hehe)
then at eastcoastpark
we walk lor. walk really really quickly.
close to jogging la.
then mummy say very hot.
then i say "where got hot ? very comfortable sunlight mah"
then she say "you siao ah. sunlight very comfortable meh"
lol.
but the sunlight really felt nice, like warm water running over your skin.
i love the morning sun. :D
the sun was so bright,
it made parts of the sea look white.
like there's a bowl of white water. really pretty.
I'm being overwhelmed by the beauty of the morning sun.
SOCIAL INTERVIEW
09 April 2010
i was social interviewing just now.
now i'm restaurant city-ing.
hehe.
social interview asks weird questions okay.
If piggish mud rolling weixin asked you to live with him/her for a year, would you accept ?
LIKE WHATTHEHELL.
OKAY NOW I'M HOTEL CITY-ING.
later go play word challenge. :D
increase vocabulary.
I made a pact (a deal, kinda) with myself to work harder this term.
cause i am not happy with my term 1 results lor. so lousy. :(
OKAY I'M WORD CHALLENGING NOW.
so you can imagine how long i took to write this post.
ANYWAY, social interview asked me this.
If you and Annabel Lim had babies, how would they look like ?
like wth.
now i'm restaurant city-ing.
hehe.
social interview asks weird questions okay.
If piggish mud rolling weixin asked you to live with him/her for a year, would you accept ?
LIKE WHATTHEHELL.
OKAY NOW I'M HOTEL CITY-ING.
later go play word challenge. :D
increase vocabulary.
I made a pact (a deal, kinda) with myself to work harder this term.
cause i am not happy with my term 1 results lor. so lousy. :(
OKAY I'M WORD CHALLENGING NOW.
so you can imagine how long i took to write this post.
ANYWAY, social interview asked me this.
If you and Annabel Lim had babies, how would they look like ?
like wth.
BACKOFTHEAUSSIEBOOK-RANDOMNESS
03 April 2010
I heart random.
It's like, people babble random stuff (mostly) cause they're bored.
I write random song lyrics on paper when i'm listening to the radio.
I'm listening to 91.3FM. they rock man :D
i dunno what song is this. OOH, ALEJANDRO(L) LADYGAGA~
dont wanna kiss dont wanna touch
AWESOMELY RANDOM YAY.
You know i love you boy, hot like mexico rejoice~
Gaga's pronouncing it as alehandro.
so is it a-leh-jan-dro or a-leh-han-dro ?
rawr.
DONT CALL MY NAME DONT CALL MY NAME, ALEJANDRO,
I'M NOT YOUR BABE, I'M NOT YOUR BABE, FERNANDO~
heherandom.
It's like, people babble random stuff (mostly) cause they're bored.
I write random song lyrics on paper when i'm listening to the radio.
I'm listening to 91.3FM. they rock man :D
i dunno what song is this. OOH, ALEJANDRO(L) LADYGAGA~
dont wanna kiss dont wanna touch
AWESOMELY RANDOM YAY.
You know i love you boy, hot like mexico rejoice~
Gaga's pronouncing it as alehandro.
so is it a-leh-jan-dro or a-leh-han-dro ?
rawr.
DONT CALL MY NAME DONT CALL MY NAME, ALEJANDRO,
I'M NOT YOUR BABE, I'M NOT YOUR BABE, FERNANDO~
heherandom.
BACKOFTHEAUSSIEBOOK - BELONGING
(I'm starting a chain, i guess. things i wrote in the back of my marryatville book)
(p.s marryatville high is a school in adelaide, australia)
Seeing the happy people
dohappy things,
a sense of insecurity steals over me.
NOW,
I don't know who they're talking about,
me or someone else?
That incident that happened today,
made me lose all sense of belonging.
I'm still, desperately,
trying to fit into this jigsaw.
I don't know what to feel,
I don't know what to say,
to that someone
whom i wronged.
I'm sure tomorrow,
I'll be all alone again.
Will I ever belong?
written on:
29mar, sometime after 2pm.
writtenin2/5classrooom.
(p.s marryatville high is a school in adelaide, australia)
Seeing the happy people
dohappy things,
a sense of insecurity steals over me.
NOW,
I don't know who they're talking about,
me or someone else?
That incident that happened today,
made me lose all sense of belonging.
I'm still, desperately,
trying to fit into this jigsaw.
I don't know what to feel,
I don't know what to say,
to that someone
whom i wronged.
I'm sure tomorrow,
I'll be all alone again.
Will I ever belong?
written on:
29mar, sometime after 2pm.
writtenin2/5classrooom.
