i regret saying that i wont be sad and miserable. cause i am.

yeahyeah, today Chinese new year, really really fun, concert was booms and all.

but i feel empty.

Soul-less.

Mindlessly being manipulated.

Not in an overpowering way.

Not in an overwhelming wave.

Just controlled.

Calm and collected.

Yet, strong.

Focused.

I feel detached.

Mind and body.

Separated.

Is it that powerful ?

It's foreign, right ?

Wrong.

It's close. So close.

Yet so far.

Focused yet distracted.

Detached yet connected.

Separated yet together.

Contradicting.